He Is, and I am Not

Father, thank you. Thank you for painstakingly showing me how you care so much about me, about the kids.  Thank you that you put into Matt's heart to get home before Anna, otherwise it would have been her first time home alone after school, and we had not prepped her for it. Thank you for letting me get to Emily's school in time to pick her up, even though we had not talked about who was going to go get her. Thank you that even though my phone was dead, and she might have called me with no answer, she did not panic, but chose to begin to walk to her friend's house with her friend. Thank you that when I cried out to You, not knowing what to do or where to find Em, you let me catch a glimpse of her coat at the end of the block. Thank you that Em saw Matt driving by at that same moment, because You had placed it in his heart to go get Em too. Thank you that she saw Anna with him, and my mother's heart was calmed; all the kids were safe.

Father, I could not have orchestrated that. I could not have figured any of that out. My car was not dependable, my phone was not charged. I had no, no way to communicate with my kids, or my husband. But You did it, even before I knew my need, You had it all in Your control.

I believe the plans You have for us are for our good... to teach us to have joy in You, no matter what. To teach us to really believe that You are Sovereign. And to bring Yourself glory as we are more and more satisfied in You, believing that our heart's desire is to know You, really know You by experience, not just by theology.

You are the longing of my heart today Abba. It is okay if our circumstances do not change. The delay is not because You do not hear, or do not care. Thank You for that insight last night. You never fail to give us your best. And You never fail to do it in Your best time. I do not seek a change in circumstances Abba.... I desire, with all my heart, for a change of heart!  You have made marvelous to me Your lovingkindness in a besieged city. You are the desire of my heart.